Sit back and have a laugh with T Bubba.

Later Ya'll...^Belle^

Had a nice chat with my niece via IM this morning. Bless her heart, she is stuck in that waiting for the phone to ring mode. I've been there. More than once or twice and since she asked, I was more than happy to offer some advice.

1-Read the book, "He's Just Not That Into You".

2-Anyone that really respects,loves and cares about you, is NOT going to leave you hanging and twisting in the wind.

3-The old, "I've been busy", or "I haven't had time" excuses, are just that, excuses and not reasons. WHAT A LOAD OF CRAP! Rare is the day when you can't find 5 mintues or less to make a call. With computers, voice mail,text messages, cell phones.....It really boils down to, for whatever reason, they don't WANT to.

4-Chalk this up as a lesson learned and move on! Don't waste anymore of your time.

5-My friend Bev and I have discussed this failure to call theme for years. We finally arrived at this conclusion. There are only 2 reasons for someone not to call, 1-In a coma or 2-DEAD. For crying out loud, even people in jail get to make phone calls!

There is a certain group of people that live a very one dimensional life, where the world revolves around them. They will catch up with you, IF they have the time and IF it is convenient. Those are NOT the kind of people you want or need in your life.

Auntie R doesn't wait for phone calls. I don't worry about it, I don't let it consume me. If I am not worth a few minutes of someone's precious time, then screw you and the horse you rode in on...somewhere out there in the world is someone who won't mind, and will MAKE and FIND the time to keep in touch, not because it is EXPECTED, but because they WANT to.

Later Ya'll...^Belle^

I made a decision last week. One I didn't want to make, but one that was LONG overdue.

You can only look at the world through rose colored glasses for so long. This weekend, I retired my rose colored glasses.

It wasn't easy, because the heart still wants, what it wants, and I realize that some dreams never die. But, you can't live in a dream. I have thought a lot about something that Ice wrote once in his blog, "Better a reality that is near, than a dream far away".

I have been hanging by a thread much too long. Suspended in an never ending state of limbo. But, not anymore.

Last week, I was in a frantic state of mind as I anticipated making this decision final. But today, I am happy to say, I made peace with it, and feel as if a giant load has been lifted off of me.

"The proof is in the pudding", is what my grandmother used to say.

I have a lot of living yet to do and it is high time I got down to it! Things may not always be what they appear to be, but most of the time, they are EXACTLY what they appear to be. Especially if you keep going down the same old road year after year and seeing the same old sights.

Didn't make it to Mississippi this weekend, looking ahead to April for that. Come next Sunday, look for me in Atlanta at the Nascar race. I'll be the one without rose colored glasses.

Later Ya'll...^Belle^

For a change of pace, sit back and have a laugh as T Bubba talks about diets.

Later Ya'll...^Belle^

Despite a late night and into early morning comment fest with Biggie T and Colo, I had a really awesome day, filled with one revelation after another.

I was pretty upset Wednesday night,okay, very upset. Earlier in the week I had drawn a mental line in the sand concerning a major life altering decision. Nothing more than a deal that I made with myself, and Wednesday was D (as in decision) Day. I had hoped that things would turn out differently and I would be proved wrong. That wasn't the case and I was devastated down to the very core of my soul.But, that's okay, I've been here before, many times, so I know my way around pretty good. So good in fact, I could navigate with my eyes closed.

As I said, Biggie and Colo pulled me through (I LOVE YA'LL!), and I was able to climb into bed and sleep. This morning, I headed out side to sit with my cup of coffee and watch the birds feasting on a fresh batch of seeds. And, to contemplate my mental and emotional state of mind.

Mother always said, "It's all in how you look at things". Taking that into consideration, I decided several things:

1-I will learn to be THANKFUL, when people show me who they REALLY are. Their loss. My gain.

2-When people treat me like I am disposable to them, I will accept that I AM disposable to them. Put a period and move on. Their loss. My gain.

3-Sometimes, it's best to leave things alone. When someone decides to leave my life, I will let them go and never look back. Their loss. My gain.

4-Actions really DO speak louder than words. When their actions say that I don't matter, I will take it and leave it at that. Their loss. My gain.

The day got off to a great start when a trip to the mail box revealed that my house is PAID IN FULL! YIPPEE...!!!!!

An impromptu Mexican lunch with Margarita's....okay,okay....more Margarita's than lunch, provided a much needed visit with an old friend, where laughter and not tears was the order of the day.

I topped off my day with lots of hugs and kisses from my favorite 18 month old, Trooper Junior and his equally adorable sister, Angel.


I realize, that I have lived most of my life, in denial, flat out refusing to see things and people as they REALLY are....I make excuses and allowances for them. Well, NOT ANYMORE and NEVER AGAIN!


So, I am off to a new phase in my life. From denial to revelation. This is my life. The only one I will ever have. I won't waste any more of my precious and valuable time being jerked around like a yo yo!. Up until now, life has escaped me because I allowed it to. Well, guess what skippy....? Not any more!

From denial to revelation.....WHAT A RIDE!

Later Ya'll...^Belle^